let my struggle make me better and not bitter

I'm finally home to blog about my feelings! Oh and by the way Happy New Years to you! Hopefully you got to spend your New Year with the people you love cause I know I did! This year my resolution is to eat healthy and be healthy. I know I know, many people say that but "NEVER judge a book by its cover". That's also another one of my resolutions is not to judge and be friendly!
Anyways I had received a call on Christmas and it's as if we picked up right where we left off. It's incredible how you know you have a true friend is when you pick up your conversation right where you left off. I mean right. I heard that quote from a conversation I over heard last week. But back to what I was really gonna talk about. I recently received a call from someone who's absolutely close to me. Usually I don't have strange feelings when I talk to this person, but when I heard their voice, I felt like crying (the whole point of my blog), a bad cry. As they (lets call this person Kalai), so as Kalai expressed his feelings about his life now, all I kept saying was "you have a purpose there". As we are quick to make up excuses now days its exactly what he had done. The same response kept repeating it's self over and over in my head, but for me saying something more than three times is a no go.
Lets go back a bit shall we! When Kalai and I hung out, I would help him out. And when I say help out I mean I actually do what he can't. Basically I spoiled him when it was and was not needed. GUILTY! Now that Kalai is out traveling and doing his adventures, he needs more help then I've ever expected. Yet that same reply always repeats itself "you have a purpose there". What else can I do? I'm trying to live by that whole "leave the past behind you and look towards the future", but really how can you when the past follows you? For now I'm just going to "let my struggle make me better and not bitter".