It's 1:43am and I got stabbed in the back by a "best friend". The person who knew practically everything and who I told everything too basically got a machete and stabbed it right into my back and then it hit my heart. No I'm not being dramatic, so don't be quick to assumptions. Have you ever told EVERYTHING to someone that you were close to just turn and stab you? If you have then PLEASE help me out, cause honestly I'm DONE! Welcome to my new fan club where everyone talks about me cause THEY don't know the real story. Now days assumptions are quick to come out, that some people don't think. I've never felt so hurt in my whole entire life. Never in my life did I ever think this would happen, to have my "best friend" go behind my back and make ASSUMPTIONS. This is the reason why I have a wall. A wall built up so high that I don't get hurt. A wall so high that no one can jump over to skip around my head and blind fold me. I am the way I am because I've been hurt more then once now, but it STOPS NOW! My wall of trust will now consist of a house where I can hide. Hide from all the lying, mistrust, broken heart, mask people and the important one those who wear a mask and don't realize it. Never in my life have I felt the urge to do this. (No I'm not suicidal, so don't make stories up.) I'm done with the nice girl act.
With all anger aside I'm truly grateful to have my REAL best friends. The ones who actually have my back and understand me and where I'm coming from. I'm not entirely shutting YOU out but, I'm just building my wall back up for you. Thank YOU for helping me to open my eyes to help me realize who to trust and who NOT to trust. No doubt in my mind that my learning is still in progress.
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